Stepping Down

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Friends,

It has come to my attention I'm an idiot.  I know that I am an idiot because our fearless leader is so bummed that I have ruined all his fun.. I took him out of victoria and his "safety net" I took him out of the place that would be his... playground... And then I created the ultimate sin...

I made Peter Emile Human.

I can't find the Cs that was the one we approved on googledocs. The ones that are left are filled with things that make my blood boil. But two days ago I had one that I thought peter and I agreed on. 

Today my ex-bestfriend died of cancer. My family is currently dealing with a lot of shit too. I'm dealing with a lot of... shit... I come on to game and have fun. 

Fun is not arguing character stats and trying to beat ideas into peoples heads. Fun is not being told we have "completely different" ideas on what things mean and what definitions there are- even after weeks of saying "I udnerstand, we need to ESTABLISH THE BOUNDRIES NOW and not later." and being ignored or todl "whatever you want" while "i go do whatever I want behind you." 

I have spent hours on Eden trying to be of help and of use to it. I've thrown idea after idea tryin gto chase down one that will please and make sense and pull from people a place of awesomeness where they can play and be happy. 

But I've had enough.  This isn't fun. It's not even close to "fun." I'm not the type of person who LIKES being in absolute power. I like servant leadership. I set shit up and i watch people run through it. I like helping characters develop and go places. I like the struggles of humanity and well, mutants I guess... 

But this isn't that. 

It's Peter's play ground. 

I tried to make it, honestly into 'our' play ground but it keeps coming back. Peter's ticked it' snot invictoria, peter can't play a proper peter because he "started with a medium based peter" and the only way he can play peter is if he's OP. 

I spent hours. hours of my time. of the time I can do things, school. play.. cleaning.. whatever, arguing for a base and fair line.. That if you don't want another player to have it, you shouldn't take it yourself. 

But I am not goign to do that anymore. My sacrifice was nothing in the face of what Peter was sacrificing. You know.. his playground.. his character being "Omega" level instead of "Delta" Level.


WE HAVE NO FUCKING SYSTEM THERE ARE NO LEVELS. 

I am tired of bashing against Peter. 

So I'm walking away. This is why I've walked away before. I can fight for a while, but then I get tired and burned out from teh fighting and i walk away. Because I have to leave SOMETHING to pick up and fix and try again sometime other. 

But now I'm done.

I feel hurt taht peter made sigifncant changes to the compromised sheet. I feel hurt that he couldn't find anything to talk to, to me, except his sheet that he changed. And- even after we faught and had arguements- he couldn't fucking get away from his sheet. Have you seen what I did with Celeste...

YOU MADE HER A WHORE PETER.

You made her the type of woman other people shun. She kissed a man she thought of was a brother while breaking him down and then what? Purified him? And yet there ar esigns all over his profile he is anything but purified. 

I tried. 

I'm done.

Good luck on the game. But speak not to me of it. feel freeto use the plotlines or not, I don't care. 

[Helmuth]

Damnit, I was a few minutes late in announcing my resignation.

Well... Fuck.

Unless you have an urge to take this over, RJ, I am calling this endeavour failed due to my pride.

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Seru, I can try, but I'm not as detailed as Joy. I won't be as good at reviewing characters and I don't know how she did the awesome coding.

It would mean taking down her NPCs and replacing them with others that either you or I play.

She didn't just build the forum, she took on the brunt of the world that the players would face.

That's a lot of work.

Are you prepared to take on at least HALF of what she was planning to do?

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Alright.. So we are all going to make a commitment to make this thing.. work. I'm going to be the head admin and Peter's going to be in admin-training... I'm going to leave stuff on teh board for people, like how to review a character sheet, what to look for and what I need people to helpme with.

Specifically.

I don't need "Joy Clones" I need Rj and Peter to be themselves but work with in the system of checks and balances we have set up. Over the next few days (hopefully tonight/tomorrow (monday) I will put up some guidelines for how we're going to handle combat (as a staff) and how we're going to handle character sheets and hwo to translate them. If you see something I say that you don't agree with- don't not say something.

I may bristle, I may snap I may snarl but I do listen- even when it's against what I believe. I hate being wrong - in this I understand Peter completely- but I do also understand how critical it is we compromise as a staff. I'm going to be making adjustments to the storyline, the world locations (I'm going to shrink down "Chicago" a bit in "areas" so we don't have everyone running helter skelter around Chicago at large and never having to "bump" into other players. Limited space means people are somewhat "forced" to interact with eachother.

I'm not going to force people to start at the x-mansion/ School. I'm going to give people the option to get houses (hey, if they can find a way that doesn't break their character to get into a housing situation I'm cool with it... Bribing the landlords with being their servants- doing handyman work, saving someone's life... But I'm not going to tell them. This is a sandbox with rules, but it's still a sandbox. They have to succeed or fail- with help of course as they need it. A little hand here, a little push there.

I'm going to find seven people to run a judge. These seven people don't have to do anymore then have an opinion about how the game is going and at one point or another make up a personality for a judge. Not the actual character, just a personality. These seven people, of whom you both will be two, will play judges so that no one knows who any of the other judges are. Having "judges" in the player base will also help balance the power tip so that it is not just the staff who have this power. It also allows us to move judges around as we need to. I will be playing the dimensional witch/goal keeper and impartial judge. My npcs, of whom I have no doubt will have one in every camp to some extent or another- will help move things along as needed.

Reasoning:

- If we have seven people all in the game, offering their opinions, we have seven people who know what's going on for "real" and can be "pillars" in the game. They can help move things along and make sure people are getting into it *by just playing their characters*. This is critical. We do not want people going OOC to do things, I want to see Sandra be dynamic and be HERSELF. she's a strong, wonderful character who needs some serious suntime. Likewise with Peter, he could- and has- been a force to be reckoned with. Even if it is they work together, or work seperately, they are goign to be keeping things moving even if the "powers that be" aren't actively around. (IE I have to take a moment or three for paper writing or family crisises.. the game doesn't just DIE.. you can just keep playing.) Having five other people who I know, for better or worse are going to keep going at it- and posting, will give us our "core group" of roleplayers.

At this time I have a few ideas who of else I want in the game. I am, probably to Peter's horror, looking for people who may or may not get along with peter. Sometimes having a conflict- as long as it remains somewhat friendly- gives people something to do besides focus on the meta plot. I am going to go approach some friends who storytell/game master for Marvel and see if they will play a judge for me. (When My friend died I got in contact with old friends who expressed interest in a game... so... yay)

...So let's see.. that's core group... strong characters who can make plot just by being themselves...

-Other opinions.

A judge's job will be the following out of character tasks:

Keeping an eye for problems or struggling players. (If a judge can't help someone personally, they can tell me and I can send someone else out or poke them in that direction with my own characters... I'm like a goalie, my job is to keep ya'll in play...)

Voting for player of the month- as part of the plotline, the voting for player of the month will be done "OOC" by the judges- the seven players. Judges have until midnight of the first day of the month to submit their vote for who they feel is the best of the time. They give them to me and I code it into the website so that the second of the month will have the results and the latest "news" blurb on what's going on in the city.

Determining the "Victory Condition" of the month. I will tell the judge who won the month for their element (remember, judges can't play their own element they are judging over.) and they can choose what victory condition or aspect or thign they want to happen to the game.

Quests, Riddles, Tests, etc. Judges must submit 2 storylines/quests/dungeoncrawls/riddles to be solved, or just brainstorm some potential "things that might happen" to further their cause. Some of these are easier to brainstorm them others. (Ie: technology and external magic are pretty easy, so is nature.. some of the others are going to be more difficult.) I say 2 but I'm cool if people submit a bunch. I'm going to try to make some up, and have a running list of things they can do. Even if it's just the first person to make a friend out of an enemy - 10 points to griffendor. (... heh)

Finally the Judges are the personalities behind the thing. They can give me feed back on how they feel the game is going- what's working, what's not working... what was fun and seemed fun to theri friends, and what wasn't.

I hate roleplaying in a vaccumn. I hate feeling like I throw stuff out and no one gives a fart what's going to happen. If I have a core group of seven people who know 'whats really going on' ooc in Eden, think it's great and are going to play and help run stuff- then i have an open line of feedback that I can tap. By keeping it on a personal level- me and each judge seperate- that means that everyone can wonder who the other judges are, and no one knows. Or atleast, unless people say then it's not as fun or as mysterious to try to figure it out.

Neither one of you have to play a judge. You already are on staff with certain duties (like Npcs, watching the timeline, helping look over character sheets... keeping things moving when I'm not around.. etc.. )

Those aren't the same duties as a "judge."

Judges, for example, DO NOT INTERACT with the players/champions. It's forbidden. If a judge is found acting (even if it's through another.. say that players character..) the Judge is expelled from the games and another will take their place.

Staff members however, do interact, poke and prod people with their characters for the sake of the game. Perferably with NPCs (not your Pcs.. who shouldn't be used for plot purposes unless there is NO OTHER SOLUTION.) Your PCs are for YOUR FUN. their actions count toward the point totals and stuff.. they shoul dbe played for YOUR ENJOYMENT. Just as I will play my Maeve with the enjoyment factor.

I will not play the Dimensional Witch/Judge however with that kind of feeling. She's an impartial NPC. IF she has to smack Maeve for breaking the rules, she's going to do it. *I* Know I can punish my own characters. I can gob slap them.

but I need you two to make sure that if I do something FUNKY that someone CALLS ME ON IT.

Because the whole trust issue ONLY WORKS if we ALL PLAY by the EXACT SAME rules.

okay?

Anyway we're in this as a team. If there's a problem, I would love to talk to you about it personally. RJ, just as a side note even thoughthis is in skype, I don't mind if one of our judges or two of our judges (or any number) are infact extraterrestal or even, extra-dimensional... I'm open to ideas. The staff will "craft" who/what the judges are, we are only letting the actual players help form their personalities and choices so it seems like there are seven actual, different people doing these games.

Alright back to paper writing.

PS:

There will officially be no more resigning from staff UNLESS it's something IRL that means you can no longer participate and do your job. Emotional out bursts and frustrations will just have to find another channel to express their complete put-outly ness. I'm not "kicking" anyone off staff either. You both were chosen to put me in my place. if I have the power to "kick you off" for pissing me off, then I will never hear your true thoughts.


(IE: If you really have a problem with ANYTHING I've just posted, let's talk. Just.. not today (Sunday) until I have my papers done. School needs to take priority for a bit. <3) You are welcome to leave notes here.